Omg, I ran out of money by January's first week, despite double pay in November. Now, I’m brainstorming ways to survive the month, tackle emotional spending, and make 2025 a turning point.

After years of therapy, it wasn’t until I picked up a pen that I truly began to reconnect with myself. In this post, I dive into how journaling helped me move from explosive reactions to thoughtful responses, uncovering hidden emotions and healing deep wounds along the way. From the catharsis of morning pages to locked journals for privacy, discover how writing can help you process, grow, and regain control of your life. Plus, I’m sharing my tips on how to get started, even if journaling feels intimidating or difficult.

This year has been a turning point for me, filled with moments of self-reflection and growth. I realised I had been allowing negative energy and weak boundaries to drain my emotional and mental well-being. I spent too much time trying to please others and ignored my own needs in the process.

But I've learned that personal growth starts with nurturing my own happiness, respecting my boundaries, and choosing to invest in relationships that genuinely uplift me. It’s not about labelling people as "toxic", but about recognising where I’ve allowed my energy to be taken, often unknowingly, and shifting my focus to what truly nourishes me.

This journey is about watering my own garden—caring for my well-being and embracing the positivity around me. The more I tend to my own needs, the more I grow.

In this post, I explore my journey from explosive reactions to emotional shutdown and the challenges of reconnecting with myself and others. Inspired by The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van der Kolk, I dive into the impact of trauma on our nervous system and share how small steps toward vulnerability and connection are helping me heal. I also reflect on the books and therapies that have reshaped my understanding of trauma, and how I'm slowly finding my way back to emotional balance.

In this post, I reflect on over 2,000 days of being single and the lessons I’ve learned from a breakup that broke me wide open. Instead of repeating old patterns of choosing what was familiar, I’ve focused on uncovering what I truly need in love. It’s been a journey of healing, self-discovery, and learning to ask for the love I deserve—kind, empathic, and supportive. I'm still single, still learning, but I’m no longer chasing the past.